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Hakuna Matata

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Every child should know what Hakuna Matata means (unless you’re from a family that banned Disney movies while you were growing up…actually, I know someone who had NEVER seen a Disney movie until high school for that very reason. On the plus side, he was a smarty pants so I guess he used his non-Disney days well. I digress…)

Hakuna Matata: “it means no worries for the rest of your daaaayyyyyssss. It’s a problem-freeeee philosophy…HAKUNA MATATA!”

If you didn’t sing along with me, you should have. Sing alongs are fun. Embrace your inner kid.

Anyway. Hakuna matata is not just a Swahili phrase…the concept is found in the Bible as well (here’s a few–Matthew 6:25-34; Luke 12:24-34; John 14:27; Phil. 4:6-7).

As a Christian who trusts the Almighty God with my salvation, I really have no logical reason to worry. Yet I do.

I’m a worrier. I’m an over-analyzer. I’m a “realist.”

Don’t believe me? (Although, why would you be reading this if you doubted my words…?)

This med school stuff is constantly on my mind. And I worry. About everything.

Which school will be the best fit for me, having to make friends all over again, moving away from what I’ve known for the past 13 years, getting through the hard science courses, getting through rotations, picking a specialty, getting into a residency, yada yada yada.

 For the first time, someone asked me a few days ago if I’m scared. Usually people just ask if I’m excited. The answer to both of those questions is a resounding “YES!”

I’m terrified. All you hear about med school is how hard it is–especially the first 2 years. And to think that in 4 years, I’ll have the title of “Dr.” before my name. And a few years later, I’ll be totally responsible for the health of my patients. That’s scary. Not to get all “staring out a window pondering life with a serious look in my eyes and ironic large glasses on my face” but here’s a thought: Maybe dreams are meant to be scary. If achieving your dream isn’t scary, maybe you need a bigger dream. The bigger the dream, the scarier it is, the more we have to rely on the Lord.

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But I’m also thrilled. I covered that in my last post–It’s pretty exciting to achieve the dream I’ve been working towards for almost my whole life! Even though it’s scary, I’m SO excited to move to a new place. I’ve had cabin fever for quite some time now 🙂 I’m ready to meet a whole new group of people and make new friends. I’m ready to make my own rules and be more independent. I’m excited for the opportunities God is bringing my way.

But here’s what I’m trying to learn: Carpe diem. Seize the day.

Again, this isn’t just a cool Latin phrase to throw around, it’s also in the Bible (Matthew 6:31-34, James 4:13-15).

“Wherever you are, be all there! Live to the hilt every situation you believe to be the will of God.”

-Jim Elliot

I’m not a super artsy person, but I want to make some sort of artwork (*cue Pinterest) that says “Be Present”…or something to that effect.

I don’t often dwell on the past–I’m sort of the opposite. I always look at the next thing. I’m the annoying person on vacation who always wants to know what we’re doing next. But the best times are when I forget about what’s coming next and wholly immerse myself in enjoying the here and now. Particularly, I think of one time in Europe when my family and a guy we met in Vienna (that makes him sound super shady…he wasn’t a random stranger. My dad was teaching in Vienna and there was another American professor teaching there who had brought some of his American students to take his class in Europe. There were like 7 girls and 1 guy. The guy ended up hanging out a lot with our family–I guess being surrounded by girls isn’t as easy as the Bachelor makes it look…). Anywho, we all got ice cream one night after a choir concert…and I still think fondly of that because it was one of the best nights I’ve ever had. Nothing spectacular happened…but we were all together and just enjoying the time. It was wonderful.

I want more moments like that.

Embracing the now.

Surrendering the future.

Enjoying today.

So, as I recently shared with a godly mother/teacher/doctor that I finally met in person a few weeks ago and with another friend at school, my goal is to  in the moment. I don’t want to waste my semester waiting for summer. I don’t want to waste my summer worrying about med school. I don’t want to waste my time in med school because I’m too busy studying to enjoy my life. I want to live.

I will be thankful.

I will enjoy today.

I will revel in this moment.

I will make memories instead of plans.

I will be present. 

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