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Med School Acceptance


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So. As of 1 hour ago today, I’m done with the med school application/interview process.

By the grace of God alone, I’ve been accepted to 3 medical schools:

-my state school

-a slightly more southern school (at least compared to where I live)

-a northern private school (i.e. MORE snow)

All 3 are amazing schools and I’m extremely blessed and thankful that they accepted me.

So, let me me give you a heads up on what needs to happen in the next few weeks/months. 

I need to decide which school I want to choose by May 15.

However, one school has offered me a fellowship. Don’t know what that is? That’s ok, I had no idea either! Basically, this fellowship will give me a stipend (which would cover housing costs and food…so living costs would be free) and will pay my grad school tuition (for a dual degree…so the Masters degree will be covered). Their deadline is in early April. Meaning I should probably pick my med school by then. 

I’ve got lots to think about before making my decision, so I really appreciate your prayers! All 3 schools have pros/cons, so I need wisdom for sure. I’m confident God will lead me and provide that wisdom. 

He is faithful.

Ok, now that we’ve got the announcements out of the way…

It’s pretty surreal to be accepted to 3 med schools. It was surreal to be accepted to just 1.

I mean, I’ve wanted to be a pediatrician since I was 5. 

And now I’m accepted to med school. 

You know the whole “What do you want to be when you grow up?” question that every kid gets multiple times? I feel like it’s pretty rare that people stick with the same answer and actually go do it. Maybe that’s because interests change, reality kicks in, etc. But I’m so blessed. God is letting me fulfill that dream. In fact, He’s sustained that dream when I wanted to give up (multiple times…). I guess I’m just a little bit in awe…ok, a lot in awe. I can’t get over the fact that I’m actually going to fulfill the dream.

He is faithful.

With all the decisions on the horizon and the stress/exhaustion/frustration/etc. that comes with med school, I want to remember this feeling. I want to remember my gratitude in this moment. My dream gets to come true because God gave me these desires and sustained them. He is good and He does good.

He is faithful.

Before I continue, I just want to clarify one thing: I’m definitely not saying that following Jesus means only success and easy days. No, quite the contrary. Following Jesus means trusting/praising Him in the hard and easy days, knowing that my eternity is secure, and knowing Him is greater than any earthly success. He is the reward. He is the prize. He is the treasure. So when the hard times come, we rely on Him. We trust Him. We believe in Him. We surrender to Him.

He is faithful.

Most of y’all don’t know this, but I had a bunch of setbacks! It was NOT easy getting here. My faith was questioned, my competency was undermined, my enthusiasm was squelched, my intelligence was doubted, my dream was mocked. But you guys, through it all…God was fighting for me.

He is faithful.

When people told me it’s not wise to pursue higher education if I want to be a wife and mother, God gave me confidence that where He leads, He will provide. When people questioned/mocked my faith, God gave me assurance and the faith to believe His Word and His promises. When people doubted/undermined my ability to get into med school, God gave me the strength to keep pushing on…and gave my parents strength to encourage and put up with me!

He is faithful.

Anyway, more on this later. But I just want to remind you guys:

My Jesus never lets me down.

(“Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” -Deut. 31:6)

He is faithful.

“If we are faithless, He will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself.” 

-2 Tim. 2:13

He fights on our behalf when we can’t.

“The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.”

-Ex. 14:14

And He wins. 

“I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.”

-Rev. 22:13

He is faithful.

Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever!

Amen.

-Eph. 3:20-21

He is faithful.

God’s grace in my life:

He gave me the dream and He’s guiding me to fulfill it.

This reminds me that He gives us desires with a purpose.

(and I believe in faith that one day I will tell you about how He fulfills my desire to be a godly wife and mother)

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They’re going to the chapel

…and they’re gonna get ma-a-a-arried.

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One of my best friends (can you have more than one best friend? am I defying nature?) and two other close friends are getting married soon.

If you know me, you know that I love watching people and I like finding patterns.

(I throw these fun facts in here to make you want to know me…I’m a fun girl, you guys.)

What do I mean by patterns?

Well I was thinking about my friends getting married and get this:

My best friend C is marrying J1.

My close friend G is marrying J2.

My close friend N is marrying J3.

Whaaat?!

How crazy is that?

They’re all marrying people whose names being with the letter J!

For a pattern lover like me, it was basically Christmas morning last night as this fact dawned on me.

(See how I used “morning,” “night,” and “dawned” all in the same sentence?)

Anyway, suffice it to say that I had a surprise party in my head to celebrate that.

(How can I have a SURPRISE party in my head, you ask? hey, it’s my head and my party so I can make it a surprise party if I want to…and I wanted to)

I’d actually like to get them to write a post for this blog explaining their love story–how they met God, how they met their (almost) spouse. 

I just sent them all a text, so we’ll see…oh, as I was writing this, N just said he’d do a guest post. Get excited, people!

P.S. If anyone else wants to write a guest post, let me know.

Ok, this post had no real purpose, so I’ll leave you with three funny stories from the ongoing document that my best friend–and future MOH–Mel and I put together to compile all our embarrassing moments in one place. 

To give you some background on these stories…

R refers to me. M refers to her.

This all took place at IndyCC (A Cru winter retreat that we went to our freshman year)

We gave pretty much everyone we met a nickname.

Enjoy…

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Story 1:

We took note that the Wabash guys were all wearing suits. They were our “landmarks” for Indiana Cru.

We (R&M) stood up and introduced each other even though we didn’t go to the same school…majorly awkward moment…the beginning of MANY awkward moments.

Exercise competition. Right side (our side) won for Jumping Jacks. Left side (Wabash, IUPUI, Valpo) won for push ups. Wall sit was the tie breaker.

Our side picked someone. M looked at R and said she could do it for an hour and 45 minutes.

R started repeatedly saying “hour and 45…hour 45!!!”

Some Butler guy (Aka Red Shirt) came to M and said, “Hey don’t you play volleyball?” R had mentioned this fun fact when introducing M.

So M was chosen for the right side and R got super competitive and was in M’s face wanting her to win. M beat the Wabash guy. Boom roasted.

Instead of hanging around to make friends, we thought it was a good idea to literally run out of the room and go to room 1221.

After we got to room 1221, we realized we had nothing to do and should have made friends so we went back down to Ballroom 1…which was empty.

Ok, so I’m not a very athletic person (although I apparently like running out of rooms…?). Shocking, I know. I play tennis…and that’s about it. But I get SUPER competitive in games even if I’m not playing. I like to win, you guys. So don’t judge me for getting in M’s face. It helped us win. That was my contribution to the team. Also, we REALLY wanted to make friends. People like to be friends with winners…so we wanted to win THAT MUCH MORE. 

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Story 2:

Our roommates asked again if we wanted to go to Steak and Shake. We said yes and went up to get our coats.

Then we decided to just go to the food court, so we called our roommates and told them.

We got to the food court and thought we should find a table first.

We couldn’t find a table.

We stood in the middle of all the tables and watched everyone hoping someone would come and ask us to sit with them…no one did.

So then we decided to get food and stood in line for Subway for at least 10 minutes.

Then we got sick of waiting. Melissa got pizza. Roshini got Chinese food.

We found a random open table with 4 chairs. We took two and figured we would make two new friends.

Instead two people asked to use the chairs and pulled them to the table next to us to meet those people instead. Boom roasted.

We quickly finished eating.

Our original plan had been to make friends during lunch and skip the 1:00 session so we could hang out with our new friends.

That didn’t happen. So we went to a 1:00 session about God’s Will.

You guys, it was so pathetic at the time. I mean, we didn’t know if we should laugh or cry. We laughed because neither of us like to cry. But now we laugh because we genuinely find it funny.

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Story 3:

In the elevator, we saw fact guy who informed everyone that he had been riding the elevator all day.

We thought it was weird. But then decided to do the same.

We got in an empty elevator and pressed all 19 buttons. Unforunately, people got on at the next floor: a couple and a guy we called elevator guy.

The couple gave us a weird look and commented that we must have a lot of time on our hands. If only they knew.

R explained that we were trying to reenact Elf.

The elevator guy said it was cool with him.

The couple got off at the next floor and all the buttons turned off.
Elevator guy ran to them and hit them all again.

We decided he was cool in our book…but chose not to introduce ourselves and make a friend.

Instead of hanging around to meet people, we thought it was a good idea to speed walk to the evening session.

We found Indiana Cru and sat next to Valpo people thinking we would finally make friends.

Again an epic fail. Boom roasted.

Wabash guys were sitting in the row ahead of us and we excitedly noticed that elevator guy was there.

Sadly, we then noticed he was flaring his arms to demonstrate our Elf reenactment.

Then we saw that the guy he was talking to was push-up guy and he was telling elevator guy about the wall-sit ordeal.

We were excited that someone finally knew who we were but not excited about the reason.

Elevator guy eventually became Elf guy. And we eventually learned push-up guy’s real name and Elf guy’s real name. OH, and get this: thanks to fact guy who gave us the idea to ride up and down in the hotel elevator, we ended up meeting two other girls who were doing the SAME THING and they were playing cards (like a full out card game, sitting on the elevator floor)…so we joined forces and all played cards. Two cool things came out of that: 1) I realized how awesome the card game KEMPS is (I had just learned KEMPS the night before M and I left for IndyCC…our friend Aaron had a party and we played cards there). 2) One of the girls we met in the elevator is now best friends with one of my best friends (C). So we’re in C’s wedding party together! She’s the MOH and I’m a bridesmaid. What are the odds?!

Anyway, enjoy your day.

Do something that will make for a good story later.

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God’s grace in my life today:

He sovereignly gave me the best friends I have.

M and I used to despise each other from 4th grade til high school basically. She was athletic (like annoyingly so) and I was/am not (like frustratingly so). But then we became best friends. And even though we’re separated by distance, we have more than enough embarrassing stories together for us to stay close (and those stories are growing every day btw).

C and I were as opposite as could be when we first met. I literally remember thinking, “Yeah, we’re never going to be friends” when I met her. Yet it’s amazing how a friendship can grow when Christ is the center! We’ve stayed close through high school, college, and now she’s getting MAAAARRRRIEED!!! Also, C is the same girl from this post who decided she wants to get married because it’s a picture of the Gospel (prior to that revelation, she had no interest in being married…like I said, we were complete opposites).

L and I actually hit it off right away. We went on a camping trip together and have been best friends ever since! We’ve had ups and downs together, but God is faithful and uses us to encourage each other. She’s hands-down one of the most trustworthy people I know. 

Ok, I already admitted my love of patterns and all that…so I’ll throw this fun fact out there:

M is my grade school friend (meaning I met her when we were in 4th grade and we even switched schools together during 5th grade…we were “friends” in the sense that our parents wanted us to be friends (mainly our moms lol), but we technically didn’t become best friends until high school)

C is my high school friend (I think I met her in 8th grade, but our friendship actually started  in high school)

L is my college friend ( I met her late spring/early summer before my sophomore year of college…the camping trip was over Labor Day weekend)

I’m also thankful for my other sweet friends.

Love you all.

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Everybody’s Watching Somebody

That title sounds sorta creeperish, no?

Actually, I know this guy from Starbucks who legit watches people.

Technically I don’t know him…I’ve just observed him watching people.

So I guess that makes me a creeper by default…

Anyway…

You’re impacting someone.

You may be impacting them positively or negatively, but you’re definitely impacting someone.

Everybody watches somebody.

What do people see when they watch you?

I pray and hope that I can be the kind of person who reflects Jesus.

So when people watch me, they’ll see Him through me.

Here’s a letter I recently sent to someone who impacted me. 

You never know what an impact you can have on someone’s life!

(Just fyi, I’ve changed some names for anonymity)

Dr. Nelms,

You probably don’t remember me. The last time we saw each other, I was around 7 years old and seeing you for a check-up. When my family was living in Texas, you were our pediatrician.

I still remember how sweet you were to my brother and me. Every time our parents brought us in, you would kiss our foreheads and jokingly ask my parents if you can take us home. If I’m remembering correctly, you used to have Christian children’s books in the waiting room and little bears hanging from your stethoscope. From what my parents have told me, you were extremely sought after as a pediatrician and that doesn’t surprise me at all. I have fond memories of our visits to the doctor’s office because of your kindness.

You must be wondering why on earth I’m writing to you. Well, I doubt you knew this, but I really looked up to you as a child. You’re the first person who inspired me to become a physician—specifically, a pediatrician. You’re the reason my answer to the “what do you want to be when you grow up” question was “a pediatrician.”

Even after we moved, I held on to that answer. I wanted to be just like you when I grew up and help other kids actually enjoy their visits to the doctor. In fact, my senior year of high school, I applied for a scholarship through Med School X and during the interview, I was asked about this Dr. Nelms that I mentioned in my essay. My interviewers wanted to know if you were a close family friend or relative since you had such an impact on me. I told them you were simply my pediatrician and childhood hero. They were surprised at what an impact you had, especially since I was so young at the time.

Well, now it’s about 4 years later since that interview and I’ll be graduating college this May. I’m blessed to say that I’ve been accepted into Med School X. I’m so thankful to Jesus and Med School X for this opportunity and grateful to my family and all the people who have helped along the way. As I was sending out thank-you letters to various faculty and physicians who wrote me recommendation letters, I realized that I should be thanking you. All of these other people have helped me achieve my goal, but you’re the one who first sparked my passion for medicine. It’s amazing to me that you had such an impact without even realizing it. My mom suggested I send you a letter and let you know.

I want to sincerely thank you from the bottom of my heart for doing your job with excellence and inspiring me in the process. You’ve already cared for the health of so many children and I’m sure they and their parents are very grateful. On behalf of my family and me, I want to say thank you for your hard work and your joy and excellence in the midst of that hard work. You’ve made an impact on my life and I hope and pray that I can do the same for another child one day.

I’d like to travel to underprivileged areas locally and around the world to share the love of Jesus Christ and care for the medical needs of the community. I will work hard during medical school and do my best to succeed. And one day, “when I grow up,” I pray that I will be a pediatrician who cares for my patients and their families like you did for us, Dr. Nelms.

Thank you.

-me

God’s grace in my life today:

 He sovereignly gave me a pediatrician who inspired me and He has kept that inspiration going in my heart.

He’s given me the wisdom to know that no pursuit will ever bring full satisfaction. 

Only Jesus can fully satisfy my heart. 

But praise be to God for the passions He’s placed in my heart that also bring me gladness!

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I’m Back…

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Happy (belated) Valentine’s Day, y’all!

(Fun fact: I’m one of those rare single girls who actually loves VDay…chocolate, flowers, and everyone being nice? Yes, please!)

It’s been 2 months + 1 day since I last posted.

R.i.d.i.c.u.l.o.u.s.

I’ll try not to do that again, kapeesh?

(Shout out to Uncle Jesse…PS have you guys noticed that John Stamos seems to actually get MORE attractive with age? It’s like reverse Benjamin Button but with looks…also, I reference Benjamin Button WAAAY too much considering I’ve never seen the movie.)

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Anyway, I’m back.

I realized I need to write this blog for the very reason I started it (check out my first post here, if you’re curious).

I need to constantly remind myself of God’s goodness, blessings, and amazing grace in my life.

A lot of times, I can be very in the moment and forget that “now” is not “forever.”

Here’s a GREAT post by Jon Acuff about that: The Truth About the Moment

So just in case you need reminders of God’s faithfulness (I definitely need that), here are some instances from my life:

He is faithful.

Before I was born…

He is faithful.

-My mom came to a saving knowledge of Jesus Christ and has followed Him wholeheartedly every since…she and my dad fell in love 🙂

-My parents got married and God did some amazing things to make that happen (ask me about my grandma’s ring if you’re curious! I’ve given 2 speeches on that 🙂 )

He is faithful.

Onto the present...

He is faithful.

My parents not only fell in love, but they’ve also stayed in love. Just celebrated their 30th wedding anniversary this past December. I’m aware of how incredibly rare that is nowadays.

My parents prayed for 8 years before God gave them a baby (me). What a testimony of their faithfulness in praying and His faithfulness in being the Giver of all good things. In those 8 years, He also molded and prepared my parents to be godly parents and gave my mom (a fairly new Christian at that time) the faith to pray and believe. She could have easily been discouraged (and I’m sure there were times of immense discouragement), but by the grace of God, He gave them the strength to carry on and learn to lean on Him.

He is faithful.

-I wanted a brother as soon as I understood the concept of siblings…we began praying. 2.5 years after my parents had their first miracle baby, my mom gave birth to my little brother. And he’s hilarious, intelligent, and awesome. (I’m sure he’d be happy to tell you that himself…lol)

-We’ve had various health concerns and God has always come through for us: giving us strength to endure and granting healing to celebrate

He is faithful.

My junior year of high school, I felt like I had become too “clique-y” and prayed that God would teach me to love Him and others more and get out of my comfort zone. By senior year, my friend circle had more or less disappeared…but in that time, I saw how God had answered my prayer (be careful what you pray for!) and I learned to lean on Him and know Him as the truest Friend.

My freshman year of college, I struggled with being a Christian in the science field. Hearing various people say that God doesn’t belong in science made me question if I belonged in science…but God used this to remind me that His Word is TRUTH.

Spring semester of my freshman year, I believed that God’s Word is true, but I began to doubt that I should stay immersed in a field where many question God’s Word. I accompanied a friend to a college group and God really made clear that I’m supposed to stay on this path towards medical school. Read this previous post if you’re interested in the message behind that confirmation (and a sneak peak at a letter to my future husband…it is Valentine’s Day, after all!): The Letters

Throughout college, oh goodness, so many circumstances (Orgo lol, people saying things to me, my own over-analyzation, etc.) have made me have doubts back and forth even after that confirmation. Yet God is faithful and continued to guide me down the path. He remained faithful when I was faithless (2 Tim. 2:13).

He is faithful.

MCAT. God came through and gave me the strength to study even though I had some health issues (that we didn’t even realize until a few months before my test date!). The Lord revealed those issues in early January, I was able to get some blood work done, and we pinpointed the problem. Nothing major (some vitamin deficiencies), but it’s amazing what a difference a few vitamins can make! Night and day, people. 

He is faithful.

Med school. I’ve had the amazing opportunity to interview at three schools and I’ve been accepted to two (the third interview was yesterday, so I don’t know their decision yet). Regardless of the results of the interview, I feel so blessed to have met my interviewers. Most of you who know me realize that I’ve been interested in pediatrics since I was 5 (stay tuned for a post about that…). Also, I’m a psych major and really interested in medicine for the purpose of traveling and providing healthcare around the world and spreading the love of Jesus. And of course I want to be able to do all that along with being a godly wife and mother. Guess who my interviewers were: 

-a pediatric anesthesiologist (who is also a wife and mother)

-a pediatric oncologist (he was incredibly encouraging/inspiring and gave me even more reasons to want to go into pediatrics)

-an awesome medical student interested in traveling and providing healthcare around the world (and has done so through his med school)

-a psychiatrist who double majored in psychology and biology in college

-a pediatrician who now teaches about newborns at the med school (and is also a wife and mother)

And just fyi–these interviewers were all assigned randomly: it was a computer-generated process.

He is faithful.

I could go on and on about how God has proved Himself faithful in my life. But I just needed to write out at least a few of those ways to remind me. It’s funny how if we don’t consciously attempt to remember God’s faithfulness, we are so prone to forgetting. And I don’t want to forget.

He is faithful.

Because guys, I need a faithful God.

I need Someone who will never change.

I need Someone who will fight for me.

I need Someone whose love for me is unfailing, never changing, and eternal.

I need Jesus. And whether you realize it or not, you do too. 

He is faithful.

So if you already know Him, I’d encourage you to take some time to remember His acts of faithfulness in your life. Remind yourself that He who was faithful will continue to be faithful. 

He is faithful.

If you don’t know Jesus, get in touch with me. I’d love to introduce you to Him. Or sit down with a Bible and read through the book of John. Get to know Jesus for who HE is…don’t judge Jesus purely based on people you know who claim to represent Him or on bad experiences you’ve had with religion or the church. Judge Jesus based on His acts of love for you: He died on the cross for your sins and mine. He rose on the third day, conquering death and giving us life. All we need to do is admit our desperate need for Him and believe that JESUS is the one true Son of God who brings us salvation. Just remember this: He loves you more than you can imagine, and you need Him more than you can realize. 

He is faithful.

Since it’s been so long since my last post, I’ll include three songs here too that remind me of God’s faithfulness. You’ve probably heard them, but I am loving these lyrics. And the best part is the lyrics are true 🙂

He is faithful.

Not For A Moment (After All) by Meredith Andrews

[Verse 1]
You were reaching through the storm
Walking on the water
Even when I could not see 
In the middle of it all
When I thought You were a thousand miles away 
Not for a moment did You forsake me 
Not for a moment did You forsake me

[Chorus]
After all You are constant
After all You are only good
After all You are sovereign
Not for a moment will You forsake me
Not for a moment will You forsake me

[Verse 2]
You were singing in the dark
Whispering Your promise
Even when I could not hear 
I was held in Your arms
Carried for a thousand miles to show 
Not for a moment did You forsake me 

[Chorus]

And every step every breath You are there
Every tear every cry every prayer
In my hurt at my worst
When my world falls down
Not for a moment will You forsake me 
Even in the dark
Even when it’s hard
You will never leave me 
After all

He is faithful.

Whom Shall I Fear (God of Angel Armies)

You hear me when I call
You are my morning song
Though darkness fills the night
It cannot hide the light
Whom shall I fear?

You crush the enemy
Underneath my feet
You are my sword and shield
Though trouble linger still
Whom shall I fear?

I know who goes before me
I know who stands behind
The God of angel armies is always by my side
The One who reigns forever
He is a friend of mine
The God of angel armies is always by my side

My strength is in Your name
For You alone can save
You will deliver me
Yours is the victory
Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?

And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in Your hands
I’m holding on to Your promises
You are faithful
You are faithful

He is faithful.

Promises by Sanctus Real

Sometimes it’s hard to keep believing
In what you can’t see
That everything happens for a reason
Even the worst life brings
If you’re reaching for an answer
And you don’t know what to pray
Just open up the pages
Let His word be your strength

And hold on to the promises (Hold tight)
Hold on to the promises (Alright)
Jesus is alive so hold tight
Hold on to the promises

All things work for the good
Of those who love God
He holds back nothing that will heal you
Not even His own Son
His love is everlasting
His faithfulness unending
Oh, if God is for us who can be against us
So if you feel weak

Neither life, nor death
Could separate us
From the eternal love
Of our God who saves us

He is faithful.

For real, check those songs out. Unbelievable encouragement.

🙂

I don’t know what all of you are going through, but I know what some of you are going through. Just so you know, I’m praying for you all. God knows your concerns, anxieties, doubts, and fears even if I don’t. Remind yourself: He is faithful and He will carry you through. I love you all, dear readers.

He is faithful.

God’s grace in my life today:

He is faithful. He is faithful. He is faithful.

He is faithful.

“When we face difficulties, we sometimes forget God’s past faithfulness. We see only the detours and the dangerous path. But look back and you will also see the joy of victory, the challenge of the climb, and the presence of your Traveling Companion who has promised never to leave you nor forsake you.”

-Author Unknown

He is faithful.

We fail Him, but, blessed be His name, He has never failed us, and He never will do so. We doubt Him, we mistrust His love and His providence and His guidance; we “faint because of the way;” we murmur because of the way; yet all the time He is there blessing us, and waiting to pour out upon us a blessing so great that there shall not be room to receive it.”

-Author Unknown, The Kneeling Christian, circa 1930, ch. 4

He is faithful.

“When others behave badly to us, it should only stir us up the more heartily to give thanks unto the Lord, because He is good; and when we ourselves are conscious that we are far from being good, we should only the more reverently bless Him that He is good. We must never tolerate an instant’s unbelief as to the goodness of the Lord; whatever else may be questioned, this is absolutely certain, that Jehovah is good; His dispensations may vary, but His nature is always the same.

-Charles Sprugeon