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I love the wisdom I glean from some of the wisest people I never knew, Jim and Elisabeth Elliot.

I’m sorta weird–at times I’m wildly optimistic to the point of naivetĂ© , yet at other times I’m cynical to the point of coldness.

This quote is for the part of me that sometimes expects the worst.

And maybe you’re like that at times too?

So I vote that we take dear Elisabeth’s advice and follow Him one day at a time.

no turning back.

God’s grace in my life today:

Watched Wimbledon at work, read Agassi’s autobiography at work and at home, played tennis until it was too dark to see.

Tennis is back in my life 🙂

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The consequences

“I imagine peaks of enjoyment when I think of doing things together, but let not the hoping for it dull the doing of it alone. What is, is actual–what might be simply is not, and I must not therefore query God as though He robbed me–of things that are not. Further, the things that are belong to us, and they are good, God given, and enriched. Let not our longing slay the appetite of our living. It is true that our youth is fast fleeting, and I know the rush of wants, the perfect fury of desire which such a thought summons. All that it involves–this getting on to thirty–brings a push of hurry and a surge of “possible” regrets over the soul. And, Betty, this is just exactly what we have bargained for. Obedience involves for us, not physical suffering, perhaps, nor social ostracism as it has for some, but this warring with worries and regrets, this bringing into captivity our thoughts. We have planted (in our integrity) the banner of our trust in God. The consequences are His responsibility. 

We would see Jesus–other lights are paling, 

Which for long years we have rejoiced to see;

The blessings of our pilgrimage are failing:

We would not mourn them, for we go to Thee.”

-Jim Elliot, an excerpt of his letter to Elisabeth in Passion and Purity

Lord, help me to trust You

God’s grace in my life today:

I am His and He is mine.

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Babysitting and Starbucks

My day consisted of:

Volunteering at KA.

Babysitting 4 cute kids.

Starbucks with friends.

And I met a random med student studying for his USMLE step 2 exam at Starbies.

So I interrogated him with questions, of course 🙂

Ended the day with family devotions at home.

good times.

God’s grace in my life today:

I’m thankful to be busy in a good way.

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Show Hope


Sorry for the long delay.

The past few days have been a bit busy, but in a good way.

Sunday: a friend just moved into a new apt. so we hung out at his place

Monday: School, work, 3 projects due for class by midnight!

Tuesday: gave Hou a bath, prepared for my Sensation and Perception final

Wednesday: took the final, worked out with a friend, made dinner

For those of you who know me, you realize that those last two words are basically a miracle 🙂 And y’all should know that my family actually ate–and enjoyed!–this dinner 🙂

Especially since I had picked up a delicious ice cream treat for dessert!

Anyway, the whole “last few days of class” thing is why I’ve not made the time to blog.

But, as promised, I want to tell you about Show Hope.

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As you may have realized by now, God has given me a heart for adoption. It’s just something I’m very passionate about.  I want to adopt and I want others to adopt. Well, I’m not at the point in my life where I can adopt yet. So, the next best option seemed to be sponsorship. We’ve all heard of the various organizations that allow you to sponsor a child: World Vision, Compassion International, Kids Alive International, Amazima Ministries, etc. Those first two organizations are pretty well known. Kids Alive isn’t as well known, but it’s close to my heart for a few reasons: my high school Spanish teacher and her husband became missionaries through Kids Alive, and I volunteer at the Kids Alive headquarters. Amazima was started by Katie Davis (author of Kisses from Katie). I encourage you to check out any or all of those ministries and see how the Lord is using them!

As I was deciding which organization to go through to sponsor a child, I would visit their respective websites and go to the sponsorship section. Invariably, I’d see the face of a child staring back at me. And each time, I thought to myself, “How can I possibly choose just one child to help?” It didn’t help that some websites allow you to “pick” a child based on the country, age, gender, etc. How does one decide that?! In my mind, by selecting this one child, I was rejecting all the others. 

**Side note. I overanalyze everything. That’s just how I am. I’m sure a normal person could go on the website, pick a kid that they feel a connection to, and be done. But that’s not how I was wired!

**Another side note. If you’re going to go through one of those ministries, see if you can do what one of my best friends did: she filtered by which child has been waiting the longest for a sponsor and chose that child. What a way to be a blessing!

So anyway, there I was, basically stuck between my desire to help the orphans in distress and my disgust at choosing one child over another. If you recall, I had read Mary Beth Chapman’s book “Choosing to SEE” a few months ago (yes, I will continue to shamelessly promote that book 🙂 ). In her book, she mentioned the organization that their family started after adopting their first daughter, Shaohannah Hope…hence the name of the organization: Show Hope. Well, I began to really look into how Show Hope works. And I love every bit of it. 

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1) I love their core commitments (directly from their website): 


  1. Orphans in families: Whether it is through adoption or by facilitating a child’s support to reflect the care of a permanent family, Show Hope exists because every child should know the love of a family.
  2.  Individual and Community Engagement: God’s plan is for His people to be the ones who care for orphans (James 1:27). It will take you and your sphere of influence, as well as the combined efforts of individuals and communities around the world, to face this crisis.
  3.  An Intergenerational Movement: We need the wisdom, integrity, and commitment of the adult generations combined with the passion, vision, and humanitarian focus of the younger generations.
  4.  A Kingdom Reality: God is on the move. Ultimately, this is about His Kingdom. Through our actions we show the love of God, and through our message we proclaim the truth of the Gospel of Jesus.In view of the love God has lavished on us by adopting us as His children, let us go and Show Hope to the hope

2) I love the reasons that you not only don’t have to, but also aren’t even able to “pick” a kid. This is straight off their website too.


The life of an orphan is often in transition, and our goal is not to see children stay in institutions but move into permanent, loving, family-based care.

It may be harder and less appealing to become involved in that situation because you can’t be connected to one child, but that is the very reason many orphans don’t ever receive help and why each of us so urgently needs to get involved.

If you are interested in a one-to-one relationship with an orphan, pray about adoption, as that is the strongest way you can make all the difference in the world to a waiting child. If you are not in a place to adopt, consider becoming a Show Hope Sponsor. You will play a vital role in transforming the lives of orphans.

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 3) I love that the heart of the organization is to place orphans in a forever family. You know the drill–straight off the website.


Show Hope sponsors not only address a child’s need for food, shelter, care, and spiritual nourishment, but you will also address the root issue for an orphan: the lack of a family.

  • ADOPTION ASSISTANCE: You will be a part of providing grants to help “set the lonely” into loving, Christian families (Psalm 68:6), giving long-term solutions to the child—solutions that extend far beyond childhood, through life and into eternity.
    Donors like you have helped provide families for over 2,000 orphans from 40 countries, including the U.S., resulting in a truly worldwide impact.
  • MARIA’S BIG HOUSE OF HOPE: Through Maria’s Big House of Hope, you will be a part of saving the lives of special needs orphans in China by providing surgeries and medical care, serving as a tangible example of God’s love for His children. This 60,000 sq. ft. facility is located in one of the poorest provinces of China. The hundreds of orphans that will be helped in Maria’s Big House of Hope will receive the highest level of care and medical attention, enabling them to thrive and greatly increasing their chances of being hope

As I said, I’m passionate about adoption, so that first bullet point “Adoption Assistance” really brings joy to my heart. I love that I’m helping others adopt. What a blessing to have my money be used in that way. As you may or may not know, I sent in my med school app a few days ago. I believe that God has called me to be a doctor, and although there were certainly some doubts and struggles on my part, He has made that calling clear to me. So obviously, medicine has a special place in my heart. One day, I hope to be the doctor who provides the medical care in poor areas locally and around the world. Until then, I want to contribute in any way I can, such as through Maria’s Big House of Hope. The money I earn now working at a hospital here in America can be used to have a medical impact in one of the poorest provinces of China. What an incredible blessing to have my money used in that way. 

If you haven’t figured it out yet, I ended up choosing to sponsor through Show Hope. One day, I hope to spend at least a couple months volunteering at Maria’s Big House of Hope and using my medical skills for His glory and their benefit. But until then, I’m humbled to say that God has blessed me financially so I can SHOW HOPE. 

And I think we can all agree that our world is in serious need of hope.

As they said above, “In view of the love God has lavished on us by adopting us as His children, let us go and Show Hope to the world.”

So, friends, family, strangers who stumbled across this blog:

Please prayerfully consider becoming a Show Hope sponsor and being a part of the miracle.

We are very excited about a dream, an idea to get our Show Hope sponsorship number to 10,000, doubling our impact for orphans! As we celebrate Show Hope’s 10th year of ministry in 2013, Mary Beth and I invite you to stand with us and help us reach that goal of 10,000 sponsors so together our sponsors can provide loving adoptive families and medical care for 1,000 orphans every year! 

As a Show Hope sponsor, you are already making a difference in the lives of orphans each month. Now, we invite you to help us double the impact! Will you spread the word? If every current Show Hope sponsor gets one more person to become a sponsor, we will reach our goal.

Be a part of the miracle!

Showing hope,

Steven Curtis Chapman

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Orphans don’t need stuff. They need families. 

please be a sponsor!

    God’s grace in my life today:

I’m believing in faith that at least one person will choose to become a Show Hope sponsor.

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Check it out…

Check this organization out.

(click on the word “organization”)

Read this blog post to get a background on the family that started it.

(click on the words “blog post”)

And pray about what God wants YOU to do for “the least of these.”

(stop and pray with an open heart and listening ears)

do it now.

“Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world.”

-James 1:27

coming soon…

Stay tuned: tomorrow I’ll divulge some personal info about why I chose to SHOW HOPE.

coming soon…

God’s grace in my life today:

Worked an 8 hour shift and used that time to make a budget, then Thai food for dinner with a bunch of friends from school, then a nice long drive with the fam and Hou to an adorable town where we ate ice cream.

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Gluten Free…

Pretty sure I need to go on a gluten-free diet.

I’ve got a bunch of the symptoms:

intense stomachaches after every meal, fatigue, headaches, etc…

I figure it can’t hurt to try being gluten-free.

If you guys have any suggestions, let me know!


God’s grace in my life today:

Coffee and conversation with one of my best friends

…who happens to be deficient in Vit. D (just like me!!) and gluten-free (just like I probably need to be!)

I am so thankful for her friendship!